The financial effects if being low income and Diabetic 

This is just kind of a blog of my thoughts about low income, all of us going through harder times and how I deal or don't deal with it. Sometimes I just need to type out my thoughts, an editorial thingy? I am not looking for sympathy here, just letting my ideas kind of run with what I have been dealing with. I am a Type2 Diabetic, diagnosed on Sept 17th, 2008. I deal with my blood sugar numbers by lowering my carb (sugar) intake, exercise and an oral med called Metformin 500/mg/day. 

I am on a disability pension and had been working until the second week in Feb, my job has now ended so I have lost around $700.00mnth in income. My last paycheque was actually Jan 1st, so this is a cumulation of how quickly things can get out of hand. Not only has this already affected the normal flow of the house (cutting off the cable, can't afford it) trying to hussle money from one place to another to make sure power and rent is paid, etc. (behind on phone, rent and power as I type) It has made a HUGE impact on what I can afford to buy for food, which in turn now is affecting my carb intake. 

I am not a financier by any means, I have a terrible time with budgets, etc. This has been the way it is for me for years. I am currently going to get some help trying to budget, but when there is no money to budget, it doesn't matter how good you are at it, it doesn't add up at months end. 

There is always the odd friend you can call in a favour on and borrow some money for a week or so, but then when the money does come in, of course you pay it back, leaving things further in the red. The vicious cycle begins. 

I have one friend who uses payday loans, I don't do that anymore, that was the worst thing to come along for me. Robbing peter to pay paul over and over again. 

So now I look in my fridge, and it is full of condiments, lots of vinegar type things, mayo, ketchup etc, so I could drink the pickle juice and keep my levels down. Sarcasm sux. Sorry. OH! I spy some yogurts, those little mini guys that just get the tummy started on expecting food. There are 4 left. 

I look in the freezer, there is rye flour, spelt flour, one piece of cod, some scarey looking bananas ready for 'nana bread. Now the pantry, there are some legumes (kidney, lentils, garbanzo) so I can make a type of chili tomorrow to last a couple of days. A couple of cans of crushed tomatoes, good for the chili.

Then, there are soups. Cream of 'shroom, 1, Tomatoe 3, Chicken noodle, 4. All filled with carbs. All of them bad choices for food. Oh yeah, there is a full package of spaghetti in there too. 

There is not a single piece of fresh fruit, veg or salady type thing to be seen. I am craving a big salad right now. 

So I am spiking up and down like a yo you, even having some lows (to me anyhow, I start feeling messed up in the 4s (72) which may not be low for some, but my body doesn't like it. I am currently having these lows for a couple of reasons, first one being, I am starving my body. Second, when I do make something to eat for myself and my son, it ends up being cheapy carbs.So a few reactive lows in there also. So, FBS this morning was strange, because at 330AM I tested and it was 9.1 (164), test again at 8am, it is 8.1 (145)  so I fast until 1pm this afternoon, not an uncommon thing with me, actually. FBS=6.4 (115.5)

I then had a can of chicken soup, a couple (well, 6) crackers in it. Ate the whole can. Still hungry. Numbers at 3pm 15.1! (272)

I am currently sitting here starving to death, or so it feels like, but there is NOTHING in this house I am safe to eat at the moment and my reading was just 4 (72) again. 

My eating/sleeping habits are getting all out of whack, I am in continual pain from feeling hungry, thirsty all the time again, then up all night dealing with the water intake. And up till all hours of the night (going on for 2 am here right now. 

Money is the absolute root of all the evil in my life right now (that and the unending physical probs) 

There is no way I would say money would fix all of my troubles, but at this point, around 95% of them. 

Thanks for listening to me ramble on, if you made it through this you deserve a medal, like I said before, this is just my view on low income and trying to eat well. They do NOT go hand in hand. 

PS. yes, I am looking for another part time job right now. I don't like being considered on the dole.